Neither, really. He was surrounded mostly by his multitudes of siblings and cousins, and most of his time and energy was consumed by farm labor. He did some bare knuckle boxing and wrestling in his early adulthood, but it was informal – less about seeking serious confrontation than about making friends and a few bucks here and there. But, I suppose, an ensuing cascade of tough times, troubles, displacements and bad decisions jostled a lot of animal anger to the surface.
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My counselor once told me to make sure I wasn’t doing things to distract myself from the boredom rather than try to sate it. I feel its one of the most important things he ever said to me.
When I’m distracting myself from the boredom, I read or game excessively so I don’t feel the emptiness of boredom. It’s a short term thing, and it only staves the boredom as long as I’m doing the thing.
When I’m sating myself from the boredom, I pursue things I am genuinely interested in and so find myself feeling fulfilled and happier for a longer period of time. Even if I stop doing it temporarily, I don’t immediately fall apart as I would with the distraction.
